For me, university starts 5 days from now and the first thing I do is an audition in front of 5 profs.

I'm so anxious that I feel the nervous energy even while I'm suppressing the usual emotions, not just for the audition, but the atmosphere of school in general. If I weren't suppressing, then I would definitely have panic attacks and the last thing I want is my family finding out about my instability.

I need to prepare for this audition, but I can't seem to focus or work at all. Everything is just piling up and I'm just getting more and more anxious every day. Furthermore, just thinking about school.... I don't know how I'll survive. Hearing the music that goes around constantly in the building will surely trigger the anxiety; I don't know if I'll be able to handle it, much less keep this mask on.

I've never dreaded school like this before.... I've never had something more to fear.... Especially when I'll have biweekly sessions when I'll be put on the spot in private and group lessons.... Any advice?