<font color="purple"> ((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS ))))))) </font>

I am sorry that you are feeling sexually degraded by someone you love and share your life with.... I have gone thru in my marriage, as have a few other members (ladies) here at PC.

I am not sure that one can actually call this RAPE - in the sense that you could call the police or go to court over it - for you gave your husband permission to do this - the go a head.

.... Have you taken this PERMISSION away from him?

If the answer is YES.... then you need to be firm with him and tell him WHY you want him to stop and then make it happen. If the answer is NO, then you must tell him ASAP!! - other wise he does not know that you wish for him to stop.

After my husband and I went thru this - we had a long about it and came up with this solution.....
I give him permission to touch me and to kiss me (any where's on my body) as to stir me and wake me up - BUT he is not allowed to follow thru with sexual intercourse until I am fully conscious and able to consent to the act.

Do you think that might work for you and your husband?