Hi Desirae,
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time and going through it alone. You're doing great in college and right now that seems to mean nothing to you but it will- so keep plugging away at it even though you think you don't care about it.
Why are you mad at PC? I didn't understand that. I noticed you're Desirae2 now. Did you delete your first membership because you were mad at PC?
((((((((((Desirae))))))))))))
It really sucks having to go through your hard times alone. Especially when you're married. Where's your husband at or is this about your husband?
Are other people being mean to you? I've come to terms with the fact that a lot of people suck and if you're lucky you may meet one or two who'll watch your back and be there for you. I'm trying to convince myself that's what I should focus on and forget about all the others who don't give a rat's *** about me. It may be worth sifting through those people for the rare and few good ones. You know what I mean?
Des, you sound so sad and alone. I hope you can find the time to talk with us when you need to again but I can see how that is a challenge with everything going on in your life.
No, you did not fail as a mother-you're probably just tired. You're working a job and going to school, you're taking care of a house and you're taking care of kids. Give yourself a break. It'll be good for the kids to go to daycare. It'll help to socialize them. Don't feel bad.