(((((((((Sabau))))))))))

I've decided I'm finished with it. It's making me too upset. I'm breaking out in fever blisters, I keep getting up all hours of the night-and it's not to pee- and sometimes I'm crying when I wake up. I'm more depressed now then I have been in a long time. I've lost what little self confidence I've managed to muster up and I'm getting feelings of anxiety that come out of the blue. I'm just not feeling right and I know it has to do with this damn family picnic. I'm doing what was suggested to me by a lot of people from here on PC, the first time I wrote about this-I'll go and see my Mom privately and I won't go to the picnic. It was great advice, why I had to keep playing with other options is beyond me-glutton for punishment, I guess. I've wised up. I'm not going to the damn picnic-I'll go see Mom on the weekend before the picnic.