AH!
That is so frustrating. I am so sorry to hear all of that. I knew when I suggested pursuing something through your school that that may not be something you'd want to do, and of course I understand that you don't.
Def keep coming on here!
There are ways that you can pursue free clinical attention that would be confidential as I know there are organizations that provide that. It is unlikely that said attention would lead to a prescription as of course that would require your parents buy in, but just the talk therapy could help. There must be a child protective services agency in your city/town. They will have a hot line that does not require you disclose your identity, and they will be able to refer you to organizations who do this kind of thing. I have worked inside of social services for a long time and I know this to be the case. If you have enough independence, meaning like a car and free time and what not, perhaps that is something you ought to pursue. Otherwise the life style things I mentioned do work.
Always happy to message, and I wish you nothing but the best!
MT
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Originally Posted by Kitcatluver
I moved around a lot in schools as well but that's because I've moved around a lot. I'm an A B student in ap and honors classes yet I failed my major classes last year thanks to what I believe was depression. I simply could not get myself to do the work all I wanted to do was lay in bed and sleep.
We have social workers somewhere in my school I just don't know where. (They move this year) and I would née to make an appointment to see them and its hard enough for me to explain my issues in multiple paragraphs on the Internet by myself in the comfort of my room let alone in a sentence to someone in the student services with five other students their to listen to what I'm saying. The only reason why in middle school I saw anyone or why my parents found out I was cutting in the first place was because an old friend told the school that I was cutting. I'm terrified to talk to someone at my school cause I'm kinda afraid they will call my mom and even though I want her to understand what's going on in my head I'm afraid she's going to jump to conclusion with the very first sentence that is spoken which is normally something along the lines of "hi I'm a social worker at your daughters school..." Blah blah blah blah blah.
Point is it didn't work out well the last time.
In fact the only reason why I even talk to someone outside of school was because I told her it was recommended by the school social worker and I wanted to. My parents just assumed that I stopped cutting just because they knew about therefore I didn't need any help.
I've asked a few times over the past 2-3 years if I could go talk to someone again but she's turned me down every time. I have told her that I feel crazy literally crazy an tried explaining everything to her but she says I'm just a normal teenager. Then I go an tell her something that my friend says about the situation an she says "last time I check so and SOS not a doctor." The irony....
I've thought about going to my school and asking for help but I don't know how exactly to go about that and I'm afraid of just being pushed away again.
The only people who even kind of believe me are the bpeople on this site and my friend who is bipolar. My other friends just accepted the fact that I'm crazy so I don't really know what they believe.
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