There have been times when I have felt this way for sure and very strongly. Having dissociation in the mix doesn't help either. It can make things feel less real by itself as you know. After years of intensive therapy with someone who really is extraordinary, I am convinced that this is the best way I will ever be truly known, seen, and understood. That puts other relationships automatically in a lower status. I realize that I may be creating a self-fulfilling prophecy. But at the moment it seems true to my life. It is hard when other relationships do sometimes feel like a facade and lacking in authenticity or openness. I understand that craving for interaction that is meaningful and satisfying. I wish I had something useful or soothing to say. All I can say is that I understand.