Hazel, unfortunately she does not have other available times. I've tried another time (more urgent things) and been told that the only time she has available is the time we have scheduled... it kinda sucks.

_Mouse, how did you get past it? Intellectually, I know I exist either way but emotionally, it's a whole other story.

archipeligo, yeah, makes other realtionships a let-down of sorts... but I am not sure I am ready for the risk of being that genuine with people that are not as "gauranteed safe" as T is... ugh.

I need to figure out how to ground from this today, because it's going to be a really long week if I don't.