Twistergirl, I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so much.

I can only imagine how hard it is to accept that your sister has passed. No one wants to loose a loved one and sometimes we can get caught up in our own minds and we want to believe so badly that our loved one is still alive and that they haven't left us.

Being caught up in our own mind though for too long a period can be a real problem because then we don't want to accept the facts and we will do anything we can to fight the facts. It sounds to me like this is what is happening to you now. It's hard to face that which hurts us so much. My heart really goes out to you.

I'm also concerned though because you posted something awhile ago about finding out that you had pressure in your brain from too much fluid build up. Have you ever gone back to the doctor to have the lumbar puncture done to relieve the pressure?

If you haven't, this could be one of the reasons you have been feeling dizzy and sick to your stomach and also having these continued thoughts that your sister is still alive.

Please allow your husband to take you to the doctors on Friday. You deserve to find some peace of mind and peace of heart as well. Please take good care of yourself and let those you love and who love you take care of you as well.


sabby