And well, I am too. Getting to know her and holding each others' hands in our constant roller coaster rides has taught me some things.
Although being with another borderline is amazing in some ways, like we do understand each other and when things are good, they're perfect... then again, some traits we have in common tear us apart even more because we're both this unstable.
For example, the whole alternating between love and hate thing... well, that sort of explains itself doesn't it? This, combined with paranoia and fear of losing each other cause horrible fights, substance abuse, self harm and suicide attempts.
My pain always causes her pain and vice versa. So when one of us is low or upset (most of the time) the other one is guaranteed to feel the same way.
Some say our relationship is destined to end in disaster. I try my hardest not to listen.
Because I LOVE how intense she is, I LOVE how no one could ever love me more, I LOVE it when I manage to make her smile. She's so loveable and she has no idea. It keeps me going. She makes me want to be a better person.
I know I can be manipulative, jealous, paranoid and mean at times, she doesn't deserve that. That's my motivation. I love her.
So... what I guess I'm trying to say is that, those of you who think your PD makes you hard to love - you're right. But it'll NEVER make you less worthy of love or less loveable. It's all about finding someone who'll face your dark sides and who'll still say "well hell, you're perfect."