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Originally Posted by HazelGirl
I used to be much more like this. But I hit some situations where I just had to be honest and blunt, and when my T didn't pull back from me for it, that's when I sort of really started learning that I could say whatever I wanted. I am relatively relaxed now, most of the time in session. A few weeks ago, I hadn't slept well, and at one point I absent-mindedly put my head down on the arm of the couch. I instantly sat up and apologized, but it really showed me how much I have come to relax and just be there in my sessions.
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That's awesome. I'm glad to hear you've reached that point with your T. I wish I could just recall all those times when T hasn't recoiled - because he never has, and even though I know that's because he is a professional, still it means that it is unlikely to happen.
But then again, even when I'm honest I weigh every word and am always wondering how to act, what body language to display, where to look... I'm not sure I am even capable of being fully honest.
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Originally Posted by Depletion
I have been honest and forthright with my T. I pretty much tell her everything, but she still seems to think that I'm performing. I'm not really sure what it is that she expects. Its like she thinks that there is some other me that doesn't come to session, and I really have no idea what that other me even is.
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That sounds kind of rough, to feel that expectation from your T. Have you raised it with her?