Erin, I took felt I shouldn't be on this planet. Especially as I was given away at birth a "mistake" but I have to find my own reasons for being here within myself. I remember my T once trying to help me with this and out of desparation she said "ok why that sperm, that egg?" you know when I think about it like that it seems that I am indeed a "winner" a "survivor" I don't know why my life was like it was,, but I know it is mine, it made me who I am today. SOmeone I use to detest, but I believe my journey can be used to help others. It is helping me raise my kids much better then if I had had a "cosy" life.