i ask myself the same question in some ways.

my t and i get along really well and i've seen him for therapy for over five years. in the last year things have gotten... odd? it's hard to explain, but as i've been dealing with ppd and trying to resolve that, i feel like i've gotten more dependent on him in some ways and i find myself frustrated that he fosters that dependence (from my pov anyway). he let's me email him in between sessions (although he doesn't reply except occasionally) as he says they help him know what's going on internally with me. i never did that until this year. five years of therapy and this in the last few months i've started emailing him.

he used to tell me i could call and email any time but i always just said, 'you know i won't.' and then i didn't. now i do and idk. i have conflicting emotions from it. it helps get stuff out of my head and we do deal with it in session but on the other hand, i kind of feel like it leads me to depending on him too much.

there's an additional piece in that him and i share some similar interests. my h and i are talking about moving in the next couple years and when i expressed that it was going to suck to move and how did that work with therapy, he told me he'd like to stay in touch when i move on.

that kind of floored me as i want that and at the same time, i'm like.... is that okay?

sometimes i feel like the therapeutic relationship has gotten a bit weird :-/ But I have a history of not being able to connect to people and so it's been helpful the way he's responded. and my brain tells me 'getting attached is bad, baaaaad!' and i want to run away from all the people in the world

so. idk. i feel like i have no brain to evaluate things.