ErinBear, thanks for explaining your situation more. I felt what I think you are describing, that "my" way would be better and came up against my T wanting "her" way. I was finally able to reconcile myself as she's done therapy with so many people before and kind of knows the route through the maze and how it's supposed to come out whereas I'd never done that. What path looked good from my perspective from within the maze might have been a dead end? I finally decided to go along and do things "her" way, even if they were longer and harder as I either had to trust that she knew what she was doing or why was I seeing her?

I finally thought of my T as my "guide" and we having a disagreement and I could either let her continue to guide me or I could go it alone. I liked the companionship and she hadn't led me wrong yet :-) so I took her route. It didn't make as much sense to take my route as she wouldn't know that one so what would be her purpose?

It reminds me of my husband and me and taking out the trash :-) He use to not do it enough to suit me and I'd get bent out of shape but then I would remember living alone when I was on my own and "poor". So, I could either live alone living hand-to-mouth and take out the trash or I could live with the love of my life, have plenty/fewer worries, and take out the trash; my choice :-) A no-brainer!