IRL, I know you are really attached to your therapist, but I really wonder if it's time to go find another therapist with whom you can feel safe and who will do therapy that you need and want and can be invested in. I write all of the time that my last therapist terminated me suddenly, but what I never say is that I terminated with her first, and then decided that I couldn't do therapy with somebody else and wanted to stay with her, but she decided I was done. I am so thankful right now that she would not let me change my mind. I was really attached to her, but therapy with the new therapist has turned out to be a blessing. I think that energy healing has a place and can be very helpful, but not if it's not what you want.