HHi ,

I can't believe I'm writing in this forum but I really need to express this.I have talked to two of my close friends but they just give me short answers and I don't blame them.

I have this online friend.We've known each other for like a few months months and it was crazy because we had so much in common.We were really close and we used to joke around a lot .We met through a forum for a tv Show and we talked every single day.We started talking about the show then,we started talking about personal lives,be there for each other and happened to be in the same city but we've never met.We planned it but she couldnt make it because of university duties and I understoood.Her bf was coming as well and she had to travel afterwards .

Well I noticed that I have been the one to contact her first in the last three times we talked and for people who used to talk EVERY DAY now it's just like so rare .

I honestly thought that since she's back home,maybe she doesn't have time.I wrote to her to check on her and she's always reponding cool but It makes me jealous when I see her talk to otherpeople on twitter and all.

Even the past three times I engaged the conversion,we exchange and talk a bit and she doesnt reply .So last time Two weeks ago I decided that I won't engage the conversation anymore until she sens me an inbox.

I get it that she's back home with friends boyfriend but I mean she often goes to the forum we met and posts there and also sometimes talk to people on twitter but doesnt send me anymore ,not even to check on me.

So many times we talked about our friendship,how amazing our bond was,how we met and all and that we would be sisters for life..;and we professed how much we love each other and that we won't grow apart.

Maybe she's taking a break from me or smthg .I dont know.I mean I have real life friends that I trust and love but she's just special.I think Im holding on to the special thing.the fact that we're so different but have so much in common.

I just don't understand.I don't know If Im acting out of ego or something but I WILL NO talk to her first again.I've done it like twice in a row even after she didnt reply ...

We never argued or anything.I dont think I did anything wrong and the thcouple times we talked,I subtly said stuff like I missed her and that she's abadoning me or smthg .stuff like that In a joking way but she didnt say anything about that.I figured it annoyed her when I imply those stuffs so yeah I dont even.

I am not desperate I just thought It was an outstanding friendship but Im just sorry she's ignoring me.You know I could have understoodthe whole going back home for holidays and not having time bnut when she talks to people on twitter and goes to the forum and still dont talk to me or replies what I last said.I cant help but think that's she's ignoring me.

I need some advice.Im shocked Im writing in here.I dont understand.Maybe I'm overreacting or something but yeah it bothers me .