Hey. .. I know it stinks... but when there is a will.. there's a way... always.. it may take some sacrifice and some hardships in other areas of your life... always gonna be something but would you sacrifice a hardship in another area to help your hardship dissappear in your marriage (no marriage is perfect but a marriage that doesn't exist has no chance) nobody wants to hear this stuff and I'm sure you probably don't either. . I'm just trying to help.. I think you want to save your marriage or you wouldn't be here right now... just a tough post so sorry. . I'm sincerely trying to help not trying to be a a jerk... gl