Every day leads me further into depression. Could be for a number of reasons. Could be my period, could be my invega shot due tomorrow, could be stress...all I know is this is not how I wanted to start the year. I wanted to be happy to see my kids. I wanted to be happy to be in the classroom. But it's not going that way for me. I don't want to start off the year on a depressed note. It's so not fair to the kids. Now I'm thinking what else could I do with an English degree? Oh that's right, pretty much nothing which is why I went for teaching in the first place, besides wanting to help teenagers.

Maybe in the first couple of weeks I can break out of this. Maybe I should add an AD, as terrifying as that is. I have a pdoc appt on the tenth so it's not so far away. Plus this really could be PMS. Seems to happen every month. Just poor, poor timing.

Am I really strong enough for this? Or should I just give up? I just want to sleep forever right now. As I have been doing for the last five days.