Does anyone of you share the same situation? All of my friends see my as the loud, cheerful and really fun to be with kind of gal. I do laugh a lot and I laugh at simple, silliest things.

I have never opened up to anyone about my inner struggles. Well, I had tried but all i got was the same "I know you. You're a very strong person." "You'll get through it..." "it's just a phase.." All of these blah blah blah didnt help. So i stopped and just kept it all to myself and continue being the "jolly me".

I had more than a few glasses of drinks again last night with my friends. We laughed and made fun of life. I went to bed happy. But when I woke up this morning, the familiar dark feeling came back.