I saw this therapist for a while and thought I was done with therapy but in the last couple of weeks have been overwhelmed with anxiety especially related to sexual and relationship issues. I went in to my session today and was on high alert and tried to talk about the things but couldn't or wouldn't, felt so embarrassed and frozen, was crying, just totally lost my center. Ended up staying for twice the length of a regular appointment. It was so hard. Then later on tonight after recuperating (and a glass of wine!) I finally get up the courage to tell my partner very calmly about the experiences I couldn't even put words to in therapy today!! What is going on?! Now I'm wondering if I even need to / ought to go back... The therapist wouldn't mind either way I'm side so it is just a question now of would continued sessions even be needed or helpful. So totally weird, like I can't believe I was ever so upset because now I'm so flinch better and the thing which bothered me now seems totally normalized and not as big if a deal bc my partner was so calm and cool about it.
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