Things just seem to be getting worse for me I mean on Tuesday it statred off by me going into a shop to get some stuff then this bloke jumped infront so I tut he looked at me and I said yeah thats right I said tut can you not see the line he was getting eye drops so I said well that explains a lot then said prike, I left and walked to group therapy once again he tried to get m eto talk I feel that he talks and ask more questios to me becuase he must find it a joke seeing the pain I go through.

Anyway so I was feeling bad like I did the week before after group I had one on one therapy that didnt go that well I dont think they take me for real I feel that what I say is just a joke to them, anyway I got home I was so mad because I have asked to be put into hospital because I know I'm heading towards doing something stupid so I'm trying to get help before that happenes. I got so mad that I tore up all my handouts and homework from group, I sent her a email saying how I feel and all that she sent me one back but not much help.

Anyway just things are going worse for me I'm ready to just give up.