You know... Your right skeezyks... After some much needed thinking, I am trans. I guess when I think about the future, other than getting paranoid from some light chronophobia, I guess that's something that could happen. It's very likely. But to as far I will go, I have no idea... I want to be looked at as a gal and feel like one, but at the same Time I don't want to be "artificial." But then Il feel like il take what I can get, but then I think of the down perks...

Like... I feel like I want to transition. But I fear that it won't be enough to make me happy, and or make things worse. I still have memories from my past, I never experienced growing up, I won't be able to have kids of my own, and a few other things that i just fear won't satisfy me... Also the money needed... Uhg... Money...
Well... I guess the best option for me is to let time do it's thing. School starts, some possible jobs may come my way, and friends are to be descovered! And yet I fear the future...