Thank you so very much for your replies dedicated and Little Lulu! Your words mean a lot to me!

I will not run away from this, but mainly because it's something I can't avoid. ><"

I am a music performance major and I am fairly certain that I will not become a musician. I don't think I can stand it, but so that all that time and money won't be wasted away, I am currently planning on completing my bachelor's in 3 years then perhaps moving on into law. I don't have any passions at all in life nor does anything really interest me, but I'm sure that music is not something I can stand doing. The music in the building is the sound of people practicing and reminds of everything that I'm supposed to be but am not. It reminds me of the person that people wish me and imagine me to be for which I am disappointing them greatly.

I shared my anxiety with my sisters once but regretted it greatly. I shared it with my only close friend though and he shares similar problems. However I feel that I am annoying him by talking about my problems... Right now, I mostly write out my frustrations, fears and thoughts in a journal. Is writing an okay solution?