I wrote a bit about this in another thread, but thought you may understand it better here?

I had to write a list of the historical trauma, and some things I have never ever ever mentioned to anyone else came out. It took a lot of courage for me to email it to T. We are about to start dedicated trauma work, really talk about things, which believe it or not in the 19 months I've been seeing him....we haven't yet.

Now I feel.....scared. I feel I've been punished, or will be, for having said what I have said(written). I also weirdly feel that half of the things I wrote down "don't really matter" and are insignificant and I ought to just get past them.

Feeling very exposed and vulnerable and anxious and many other things right now. Can anyone relate?

I feel a strong need to hide away, crawl into my bed tonight and not get out for a few days. How ill I face my T, after he reads some of the horrid things about me?