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Old Sep 02, 2014, 05:51 AM
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Yes, in a way... When I'm depressed I'll try and hide it as I'm terribly afraid of being a nuisance to others. When I become really depressed though I stop being so high functioning and I'll stop going to class, stop going out etc but then when I see someone for help during that time they can't generally tell that something is majorly wrong even if I'm feeling very suicidal.

Same when I'm hypomanic, I'll try very hard to contain it which ends up with me feeling it so badly internally that my skin starts tingling and my eyesight gets funny (I see brightness in my peripherals, haha I think I mentioned this in that hypomanic thread that we both were posting in) and just feeling like I'm on drugs. Actually when I've been ridiculously high on stimulants or something like ecstasy it's the same, I can hide it quite well except my eyes look freaky lol.

Mostly people just think I'm either extremely tired or acting a bit crazy. Little do they know...
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