My kids have kept me from trying to commit suicide also. I wasn't sick when I had my kids. My issues didn't begin to show until 4 years ago. I used to be a great mom. I was always on top of all my kids needs and it made feel proud and very happy. Now my husband does more than his fare share. I feel so bad for my kids. They just want a Mom who is attentive and I am failing miserably. I'm failing as a wife, mom and employee. My kids do give me unconditional love but I can see the hurt I cause when I can't get out of bed to play with them, I'm freaking out to much to go to a school function, the list goes on and on. Sorry this turned into me venting and feeling woe is me