It has been a long week.... and I am looking forward to tomorrow's session. I think that we are working things through or I sure hope so. Confrontation and enlightenment has been thick with me for the last week particularly and the last month. I feel fortunate that I have been able to go 3 weeks in a row, that he has allowed this... atypical. He knows the need is there.

I feel that this has been such a struggle and I think that this is probably a valid part of my journey but I am still so angry. I am unsure if I am angry with him or with myself or my past or what the heck.... but this hurts. I do not wish to alienate him but my pain is deep. I feel like I need to let him know I am angry... like he doesn't know it...haha... but also the week has been so painful I feel like I need to protect myself from further shell shock.

Words of wisdom?.... I have been angry like forever... maybe from birth... I really would like to quit being angry.... Tired...