Hi guys,

I'm having a hard day today

At lunch I was sat with some of my work colleagues and they got onto the topic that apparently someone I work with has said he is clinically depressed. It was being spoken about as if it was some hot gossip, and then one guy was going on about how he "doesn't seem" depressed, and that he bets he hasn't even seen a doctor he's probably just being over dramatic! This really made me angry and upset, and also made me feel extremely uncomfortable. Most of my colleagues know that I was admitted to hospital earlier this year for my depression, and now I'm left thinking what was being said about me earlier this year - were they saying the same about me? I didn't want to end up snapping rudely at him, so instead I stood up and went to put my cutlery in the sink as an excuse to get away from it. They must have known I was uncomfortable because they had changed their conversation by the time I got back. I'm so overly emotional that I was then left feeling extremely upset for the next couple of hours. I was already having a pretty low day, so this just really hit a nerve.

I just don't know how to deal with people who are so insensitive. Even though they weren't talking about me it felt like they could have been. I kept my eyes down or acted like I was extremely interested in my phone because I just didn't want to see if any of them were looking at me who know about me.

I just feel like I need lots of hugs... and maybe a nice cup of tea and a blanket to cuddle up with I just soooo want to get out of this horrible low mood but as hard as I try to stay strong and get past it somehow it always manages to take over