I help my friends out anyway I can, but now I'm starting to feel like I was the fool all along. I lent money to two friends of mine, I've asked them to the return my money, numerous times, until I finally got sick of begging for my own money. I need it pretty badly, but I decided to just bite the bullet and ask my parents for the money, since I have no hope on my friends ever returning it, they don't really care about me, and now I feel like this has damaged my reputation in my parents' eyes, they're not happy.

I asked another old friend of mine to help me out, I LITERALLY HELPED THIS GUY GET THROUGH his degree, I helped him through his project, heck, I know a lot more about his project than he does, I saved his *** numerous times over the course of the last three years, I borrowed money from someone just to help him out, and I never borrow money, His parents literally begged me to help him down the straight and narrow, and wanted me to keep an eye on everything he does because he had a gambling problem. I don't like to take too much credit, but he acknowledges that I changed his life, and will forever be thankful for me.

I asked him to lend some money to me to help me out, it fell on his deaf ears, he doesn't really care. I outlived my usefulness to him, I'm the fool, you just take what you get out of people and move on in life.

I don't expect my friends to reciprocate what I've done for them, but I'm not doing well, and it's all party their fault, I expected them to honor their word and return my money back to me on the first of August, now this is the 1st of septemeber,

It's what you get for being a nice guy, I'm not intimidating, I can't force them, I don't know them know I'm pissed off and miserable, but I made it quite clear to them that I'm NOT doing well, and now I'm starting to doubt my friends, and I feel like my family suspects that I'm up to no good and possibly drinking it all away or... worse.... . **** this ****.