Thanks

Me too. I had very bad suicidal ideation with my first psychotic episode & I became very withdrawn, thinking about how to etc. I then just sat comatose for an afternoon before an out of the blue phone call from my Mum snapped me out of it.

It seems to be the awareness of my situation that is the worst part now. Last time it was the distress as I didn't know what was going on.

Anyway, I've been getting back into music a bit myself. Got some Zero 7 on now, had Moby, Massive Attack earlier... All nice calming music.