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See we can't know for sure. My mom attempted suicide about 7-8 Times after my dad died, So I was 4-11 during it. It made me feel like she didn't love us enough to continue living. There would be pills all over the house and she was found by my sisters usually. She had untreated severe ptsd and depression. She completely regretted doing it. My mother was a wonderful person. She passed away at 72, 7 years ago from lung cancer. I miss her every day.

My point is, u will be missed. I barely know you and already like u a lot. You have so much life ahead of you. There's only one way imo to for sure be successful, and I'm not putting it on here. But I can't do that to my boy and my family. I just can't. I hope those thoughts go away for you soon. I've attempted 3 times. Had to have my stomach pumped, it was no fun.