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Old Sep 02, 2014, 11:39 AM
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I am so tired of this roller coaster. I am 36 years old (almost 37) and have been dealing with this crap since about 18 years old. Right now, I just can't imagine going the rest of my life dealing with this. I was hypo last week...felt great...got so much accomplished, but now comes the crash. I've been feeling it coming on for a couple days but for some reason, when I woke up this morning, I knew it was there..just a little cloud hovering over me...and it's just getting worse. I am on meds and am completely compliant. They worked great for awhile but I think maybe I'm getting used to them and they might be no longer working? ***I am NOT suggesting or threatening suicide***I'm not at that point yet, but I'm just really fed up and wish I could be "normal", happy and carefree most of the time. Thanks for listening to me vent. Just don't have anyone else to talk to about this; don't want to be a burden.
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Bipolar II (Rapid cycling), BPD traits, Panic Attacks
(Lamictal, Abilify, Lorazepam, Wellbutrin)
Disabled Veteran, US Army
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