Alcohol is a depressant. I have always liked drinking as it does lift me out of my mood. However, as I've aged (I'm 56) and my illness progressed, the after effects of drinking got worse and worse. 20 years ago I could get pretty drunk and sleep late the next day and be fine in a few hours. Now if I drink like that I am severely depressed for 2-3 days. I didn't believe alcohol was a depressant when I was younger, but I know now that it is. If you want to stop and can't there is treatment available. You owe it to yourself to take care of you!