SecretGarden, I flunked how to be angry way back when they covered that in school or whenever we were supposed to learn it, so I've no words of wisdom there. But at least you recognize you have a need to deal with this.

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I feel like I need to let him know I am angry.... also the week has been so painful I feel like I need to protect myself from further shell shock

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Can you tell him this? Maybe just let him know you are angry but also let him no you are too fragile right now to deal with it? This way you at least get the subject out on the table, with a promise to return to it when you are able. ((((hugs))))