Cbt I have been a fair amount in partial hospitalization. . It's been almost the only thing to help me some.. but like you guys have said it's rather hard to "tap into"... I did an emdr treatment last week and was completely amazed by that experience. .. it was nothing at all what I expected (even though I read up on it before hand), my body felt completely different afterwords... I was able to live in the moment so to speak since the first time I can remember... after that I've noticed a better processing at php... it's obviously not a quick fix and I will be doing more but it gave me a sense of hope like I can do this after all... good luck with yours..