((Jane)),

YES, I know exactly how you feel and have experienced this myself. Even though you feel you have told something that will get you in trouble, or is wrong or are afraid you may get a reaction that will hurt you somehow, you did do the right thing. Whatever it is, you have carried this burden much too long and you really do deserve to finally talk about it.

I do believe that in the 19 months you have been in therapy you have not discussed something traumatic that you never told anyone else. Some of these deeply hidden hurts can only be revealed when a patient has "trust" enough in a therapist to discuss them.

Whatever it might be and whatever way you reacted was the only way you knew how to react at the time. It was just where you were at the time skill wise, maturity wise no matter what it may be.

((Hugs))