Saw my solicitor today, he said I won't be getting off my CTO.
I'm not looking forward to the tribunal.

so i just saw my therapist.

it was really pleasant. shes been so gentle with me today and usually is. i told her that for a long time i saw her as a mother figure because i did. and she said she wouldve been proud to be my mom. she reestablished that its only a professional relationship tho. it was still nice to hear what she had to say though. very nice. she said i need to speak up and say my feelings more. yea i need to. i told her about my gangstalking again and she listened very carefully to me and didnt interrupt.

it was very pleasant
i was so happy to see her!!!

sadly i only see her 1 more time for good

she brought in the other therapist and introduced me to her. i didnt like that

Thanks

I think they probably skipped the 3 month check-up because I was making good progress with the SSRIs & a couple of sessions. Just said to do my annual check up with my GP.

It's more my GP that seems to just write things off as hypochondria. I think I was barking up the wrong tree at times with my CPN trying to pass off some of my returning symptoms as possible AS. Never occurred to me that I was relapsing... I was in denial for a fair while after my symptoms went away last year.

As for the coffee shop thing... problem is I am prone to getting paranoid around people. Think people are following or watching me.

I did manage to go out to the park today which was good mostly. Going to the shops at like 11am seemed ok too because town was quiet quiet.