my mom left again (umpteenth time)
i dunno whats going through her head when this happens...
i tried talking to her about bipolar and how she should becareful drinking and using pills that arent Rx'ed
she is also taking celexa and i just got off cymbalta because it was causing chaotic ultradian mixed hell ...

it seems she doesnt realize whats happening even after she "comes down" and returns back home ( although this is apparently the last time my dad will deal with it )
it seems like all of a sudden she becomes fearful, trapped, and runs away ... she always ends up crying and saying that no body loves her here and that everyone was talking bad about/to her ... we know how she is sensitive
we try to respect certain boundaries so that she will be more comfortable..
dad and mom have been separated for a long time, but trying to live together to be a family?

as you may guess, this is a traumatic trigger of mine which seems impossible to acknowledge or find a way to deal with

but more over id like to know what is happening with her or what to do to get her help, i thought i was helping her by talking to her about MI awareness but maybe im just making things worse - or maybe its just my illness ...