I guess it's a story like many others. I'm actually embaressed of it, that I have those feelings for him though I shouldn't.
I met him during first year at the univeristy, we study together. I don't make friends easily, but with him it just clicked right away. I didn't know that he is gay, he's not showing it off. After about a month of hanging out and bonding a lot, he told me when we wre drunk at a party (I saw him kissing another guy). After that I cried for hours, listening to stupid Lana del Rey, and I had absolutely no idea why. Well, now I know. I think that I've been in love with him since the day we met. After his confession I (I guess) somehow hide my affection inside myself, cause I know that we will never ever going to be together, and didn't think about it for about two years. At the same time we became best friends. We are both rather weird when it comes to emotions and feeling, we keep them to ourselfes, don't show it to people, which is one of the main reasons we understand each other so good. We had so many adventures together, did a lot of strange things, drink&party, share everyday life, we hate the same people
He is the best what happend to me in whole life. I love him with every fiber of my body. I am jeleous about his boyfriends(though he've never been in a relationship longer then 3 months) and other close female friends that he has. Although I know that I am the most important of all people he has in life, he told me that and I did the same to him. I have this weird thing that I don't really like people touching me (unless I'm in a romantic relatinship of course), so I dont do this strange "hugging instead of saying hello" with Him. We generally don't touch each other, but we kissed few times when we were drunk. Sometimes I feel a sexual tension between us, but maybe it's only my imagination. I want to kiss Him, hug Him, have sex with Him. I know that my feeling are stupid and impossible, and I will NEVER ever tell him that I love him so much it actually hurts. I value his friendship more then some hypothetical reationship we might have.
Lately my feelings towards him became unbearable. I just can't stand it, I'm done, I love him and I can't have him, and it's such a cliche. And I can't live without him as a friend. I prefer to suffer and cry at nights, but then meet him for a drink and laugh our asses off and just be best friends, because we are just great together. Once ore mutual friends that it's such a pitty that he's gay, cause we would be the perfect couple(fortunately He haven't heard that).
We'll graduate in two years. After that I'm seriously thinking about leaving the country for a while, first of all for job reasons, but also to get perspective, a fresh view. If I'll stay here, I will never be really happy, though now it tears me apart when I don't see Him for three days.

This wasn't supposed to be soooo long. I just never told about it anybody. Also sorry for my English, it's not my first language. If anyone have some thoughts about my situation, don't hesitate to express it, I want to see other people's point of view.