My husband reminded me that I like it because I associate it with something that feels good for me too. To do that, you could do something that you like or have him do something or find something you like to do normally but find a way to do it while you give him a blowjob. Even if you have to masteurbate while he puts it in your face, if you can make yourself have an orgasm, it will be more intense with such intimacy, for both of you, that you'll learn to love giving blowjobs and if you feel comfortable doing that with a guy, he'll probably eventually want to marry you, lol. So make sure it's someone you can see yourself with for awhile or at least that you know you love.

I think most straight guys like their girls to be a little dirty in the bedroom, enough self confidence to do something like get a few tattoos without being apologetic about them (which I guess is the same as carrying yourself well, in a way), and still feel he's able to take you home to meet mom. Some guys may not even know that's what they like because they've never dated or met someone they were attracted to that fits that description.

Also, just to throw this in here, it's a good sign when a guy is excited (in a negative or positive way for you to meet his mother but doesn't introduce you until at least 2 months later, in other words, he talks about his mom and family a lot, negatively or positively. (I'm aware of how Freudian all of this sounds and I'm not a huge fan of Freud but he did become famous for a reason). But be weary sometimes because there are some guys that know this and will take advantage. That's when you have to trust your instincts, make sure you're not having a bipolar moment (if you are bipolar) or codependent and not treated.

I've had out of maybe the 15 boyfriends I've had, all of the guys who have broken up with me because I was too clingy and codependent right off the bat, broke up with me because I was clingy right off the bat and these relationships only lasted a couple months, then I became crazy and obsessive to where we couldn't even be friends. Those were relationships, now that I look back on it, where I was having my worst manic or even depressed episodes, was when a guy broke up with me, when I at baseline, the real me, I did the breaking up, even if he was the hottest guy in any room, I would break up with him if there wasn't something I liked about him or if he cheated. When I have bipolar episodes, I don't even care if the guy sleeps with someone else or treated me like ****. Interesting.

Sorry, I'm new the knowing that I'm Bipolar so I've just been going back and looking at my past behaviors and how I would handle something at baseline in order to help myself recognize and maybe try to stop the destabilization if I see it coming.

I'm a scientist, I think about things completely different than most people. So if I figure something out while writing I start taking notes on what I'm thinking about instead. I hope that makes sense. Lol