Yea initially as I calmed down I felt ashamed and embarrassed for being that way. Its interesting. I guess I'm just looking for a cure all pill like everyone else. This road is inspiring me to tackle these issues once and for all though. I generally don't let it out full bore like that, bit it does sneak out on occasion and of course some of the issues with the positive things that come out from that way.

Function is precisely my reasoning here. I need to be functioning at optimal levels majority of the time. For me this level is not satisfactory.