I have a roommate but she's ticking me off more times than I can count, and doesn't know what is going on, partly because she would judge me for it in a negative way. Other than that I have driven more people away because I'm afraid that they will judge me harshly, just like the roommate. And yet her I sit tonight, wanting to use one more time today. There's been a lot on my mind, and it's not easy right now.