So you take medicine to make life okay only to possibly cause weight gain which has been a struggle your entire life, which brings you back to where you started.

I almost want to go without medication to see if A. I can do without it and B. If weight loss would be a little easier. I can't be happy if i can't lose weight, especially after losing 40lbs starting Zoloft and gain more than half back (DISCLAIMER: I do not blame it all on the medicine but I became super lazy and unmotivated to exercise, which a few months before the medicine i stopped exercising as much and watching what i ate but when I started the medicine I blew up over a course of 6 months, untill it seems like I stopped taking it and tried different stuff) i know some, if not most is my fault.

I wish i could just stop eating unless i needed to. Its disgusting.
Anyways, has anyone experienced this too? Suggestions? Advice? Just want to talk about it?