Thanks for your suggestions! Hate to make excuses, but I'm about to. I live in a close-nit community where people have lived all their lives and have known people just as long - it's tough to be accepted. With somewhat various work hours, it's tough to commit to volunteer work. And most of that is done while I'm working. I can't even find a shrink to get mental meds during the hours I'm NOT working (my boss frowns heavily and me taking off work for appointments). From my experience with mental meds, you need an appointment once/month when trying new meds.

Diet could be a problem, but I don't know a carbohydrate from a calorie! My major reason for bike riding is to avoid becoming like my mother in eventually using a cane/walker to get around as I get older. Bike riding is DEFINITELY not to lose weight. A contradiction there is I could actually use another 20+ pounds; I was already beginning to lose weight when I started.

While I didn't mention it originally, I'm also losing interest in things I once enjoyed. Granted some of that is due to getting over 50 and no longer having the abilities (which is depressing in itself), but there are also things I can still do and no longer enjoy. The infamous "they" say you should do things for yourself. But having someone to do things with is so much more enjoyable, learning from each other and supporting each other when needed.

Seems like the older I get, the more depressed I get. There are moments of hope, but hope disappears. These feelings are literally getting old and I'm losing patience in hoping solid will come along. Excuses maybe, reasons maybe. I don't know anymore! With not being able to stick up for myself, I'm just flat out tired!