I feel very emotional today. I want to email my T and cancel citing many stresses in my life as a reason. The thing is, I worry I am running away. I asked my T that on our next session she help me talk about some things I have found it hard to open up about.

Now I know this is coming I feel like my brain is throwing everything at it to try and stop. I want to email her - knowing this is not ok to do - so maybe she will cancel me. I want to cancel and say current things going on are too much (which would actually be legitimate) I want to talk to her about all this other stuff to try and prevent her doing what I asked, which is to help me talk.

Is this a good sign I am getting close to the core of some issues, is it smart to keep pushing? Or is this a sign I need to go slower and calmer?

My head is so confused tonight, i feel so stressed.