I'm feeling very confident recently that I can handle owning a toy
I've managed to hang on to lubricant and at least one other explicitly sexual item without feeling the urge to get rid of them, even in during of my 'bad moods.'
Really, the only things holding me back now are opportunity and money. The trip to the adult store is still happening 'sometime' soon, I just don't know exactly when. I don't know if I'm more nervous or excited about it. Once it actually happens, I'm determined to walk out with a toy purchased.
There is one other toy I know I'd like to get. It's just suuuuper expensive! And even with my new-found sense of confidence, I still don't order it because of just how much money that would be to spend on a silicone penis lol.
Thanks again to everyone who has contributed opinions, suggestions, and advice