Over the years I have had on and off depression. I felt like I've gone awhile without any, but just recently it came back. It's hard to know how long it's going to last. It can go away because it has before. But it seems like it's going to be for an eternity when it comes on, especially at first.

There are times when I think that the episode I'm going through now seems more severe than in the past. But I think that's not really true, unless something had happened that was bad that never happened before.

It does seem stupid to me that I can have that feeling of depression and there's no reason for it in the present. With me, I guess it comes from thinking about the future and how dreadful it's going to be.

The only thing that helps me is to go on a bike ride or walk. It clears my mind. It takes the sting off. But the depression comes for me in the mornings and for most of the afternoons.