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Originally Posted by Travelinglady
Oh, my, I am sorry that happened. Are you in therapy for your PTSD? That said, the thunder and lightening and the big eyes might concern me, too. You will be okay. 
I do think you can get better. Also, does the doc have a room without a window or some other better environment for you? |
Travelinglady,
Yes, the therapist I see works specifically with Complex PTSD and multiple issues along with evidence based practices... She started seeing me for the shooting and then the rest just came tumbling out... I really thought I could keep the rest a secret.. but she has been great and has been very supportive.
I drove right by her office on my way home and if I had stopped by, she would have found a way to work me in, because she knows I only come in or call in a true emergency... believe me I almost stopped by, but it was over and I can wait until Friday, unless I have another of these... We have been working on a serious childhood issue that seems to be getting mixed up with the shooting in my mind so thus why we think the multiple issues at once...
I was originally dx'd with DID 15 years ago, but she doesn't believe I meet all the criteria for DID and neither do I so I dissociate, but I don't have distinct personalities, closest I ever came is voices in my head, I loose time and go into a fog like state at times. The voices suddenly left about a month ago (shortly after my last head surgery, she thinks this may have done something as a nerve was severed during the surgery)... I have been having a hard time coping as they were how I coped....
The Eye Doctor is not aware of anything other than I have PTSD and will have me in a room without a window next week, thank heavens... I really think I freaked them out.
Thank you for your kind words of support
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Originally Posted by QuasiM0d0
I am very sorry you are suffering so much. I understand that what you see is "real" for you at the moment but is there any way you can tell some part of your brain that.."This is not real"? Perhaps you may need to see an M.D. about this and not a Therapist.
Please hang in there....
Kind regards,
QuasiM0D0
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Quasimodo,
I am seeing a MD, a Neurologist, an ENT, an Eye specialist and a therapist that specializes in complex trauma and Dissociation... I am just a plain mess!
Thank you for taking the time to read my post and your kind words, I know Trigger posts can be scary to read and I appreciate both of you responding, it makes me not feel so alone