While I'm newly diagnosed (Thursday marks one month, despite my suspecting it for years), I've realized these shopping patterns in myself as well. I once spent over $5,000 on a vacation, buying what, I have no clue, though I do remember a lot of it was expensive cuisine. When I looked at my AMEX chart of spending for last year, the majority of it was on Amazon purchases, again, not really sure what on earth I'm buying, with the exception of a bunch of camera equipment that I don't even end up using because I'm depressed and have no interest. So yes, reflecting on these and other tendencies is slowly helping me accept and embrace my dx, and definitely explains a LOT of my other behaviors as well. I'm not 100% there yet, still trying to figure out the whole "who can I trust to tell" and fears of stigmatization thing, but I know for sure my dx is correct.