I struggle to go anywhere by myself. As specially if I get a bad mood swing. Its the difference between life and death for me. It's the same in the house if I am left alone.

Unfortunately I haven't. Even though I have had councilling for PTSD, I sort of just keep getting passed on. I just have to do deep breaths and hope that it works out.

I was at Northumbria last year, my depression or whatever is wrong with me didn't help. I took an overdose and was in hospital for a while and they gave me a letter to give to the uni and they were completely useless, they just dismissed me.

I had to stop driving cause I would get in the car angry and that doesn't go well. Every time I looked in the mirror there was a white car following me no matter what. I had 3 crashes in 6 weeks so I stopped. This is the only way I could get around by myself when I have no motivation.

It's really hard when you don't know where you are at and have voices in your head. This year I have moved to Sunderland as my partner goes there,its smaller and they seem to be fast at getting back to Me when I told them the situation.

I'm scared to fly and know that if they tell me what's wrong I won't be able to cope with it and don't want new meds to mess me up. I forgot how to relax and enjoy myself.

With all of this I get kind of a short term memory loss. I genuinely can't remember what happened the day before or the day before that. So remembering stuff is non existant for me D: