I don't always know when to trust myself. I have learned from the experiences I can now see werent good for me. But I still seem to play at the edge. For example I can get overly sexual when hypo and recently engaged in some texting with an old flame & sent naked pics but turned him down when he wanted the late night bootie call. I have a bf so I was playing risky near the edge. Maybe a good thing my meds make me sleepy lol. Even though I didn't go through with it, I still wonder what was I thinking. But good news this is an improvement from previous actions.

When depressed - therapy has helped with this - my brain tells me lies. I go to catastrophic thinking that just keeps me down. Negative thinking & inaction that just kicks myself further when I'm already down. I'm working hard to change the circles in my head to something more positive.